The sleepless night
October 27, 2017
It’s 2 a.m. and still I haven’t slept yet. Everyone in my room is sleeping. I don’t have any work either, but I don’t know why I am not going to sleep. I don’t have any office workload or any assignments for my college, so I should waste my night. And the fact is that I can’t say that I am not feeling sleepy I don’t want to sleep.
There are a lot of thoughts running in my mind, like what I am doing in my daily life. Why am I doing that? If I am not on the right path then where is the right path? If I am on the right path then why am I not happy? What should I do? There are a lot of question marks floating in the fluid of my mind.
Now I am thinking about my job- They are forcing me to work hard but they are paying less for that. They should increase my salary. My expenditure is more than my income though I am spending very less, and also I am in debt for a big amount.
Now my study is coming on the fence of my skull. I am not paying as much attention to my studies as I should. The last topic of the assignments I submitted was not so attractive. Though at present I don’t have any assignments but previously I missed three assignments. Oh shit! It can affect the overall result at finals. I am unable to provide enough time for the practice.
Now there is another stuff creating scratch. This is about my family, my parents, my brother, and my sister. How are they living? I am here 1600 km away from them. I haven’t talked with them for the last 4 days. How careless I am. I don’t know if they have any financial or health issues. And I am also powerless. I am unable to do anything for them as I am alone here and I am also facing financial problems.
Now it’s 3 AM. And at 6 AM I have to wake up and prepare food. At 10 AM I have to leave for the office. Now I have only 3 hours to sleep and it will take around half an hour to sleep tight. So I have only 2:30 hours to sleep. Oh no! Tomorrow I’ll feel sleepy in the office and the boss will give me some golden words that I never liked.
I think I am going to be mad. What should I do now? What should I do now? OK OK, I am going to sleep. One last question – When am I going to get rid of these questions and also from the sleepless nights like this?